Ani

If I could, I’d say it like Ani
Bold and cold with force
No fears
Look you in the eye
No tears
But I am too timid
I am too shy
I am still too weak
I cry
For someone to hold me
For someone to mold me
Into something I want to be
Because I can’t remember who I am
And the cold wind slaps my face
As I try to run this race
But I fall behind every time
I can see the finish line
But I can’t reach it
You have to help me
I can’t help myself
I want to scream
Forget the dream
When you and I were together
In love that lasts forever
That was bullshit
I stop and sit
I refuse to run anymore
What would Ani do
when colors fade away?
I can hear her turn and say
Get your ass up girl
The world ain’t black and white
But a 1,000 shades of grey
And you ain’t giving up
You are going all the way
‘Cause all you got is yourself
And the dreams that wake you
Let your own feet take you
And she’d be right
I stand and fight
The wind, the rain
This haunting pain
In my feet, how sweet

To cross the finish line.

The me and you of it...

painting by Kazuya Akimoto



This is the me
and the you
of it

An entanglement
of souls
haphazardly
making our
way through
a fucked up
world

This is the truth
and the heart
of it

The feeling that
you are
alone and
misunderstood
left yourself
in a deep black
hole

This is the strange
and the bizarre
of it

That life keeps
presenting
it’s mystery
keeps you guessing
the rules of the
game

It can be what you want
it to be
It can be what you need
it to be

But only once
to examining eyes
can it ever be
exactly
what it is.

Dimensions

You are amazing
And I know everything
About you
Even the things you
Haven’t told me
The things you are
Sure I do not know.

And to say that
I don’t feel
When I have felt it
All
Looking at you
Touching you
Being in your
Arms.

It seems so easy
So simple
To live like a
Child in
Wonder…

But I have long
Lost that luxury
Like my innocence
It is gone.

Replaced by something
Different
Perhaps more
Profound

Another dimension
Yet unknown
Real as any
Other

I can not paint the
Picture because
I don’t yet know it’s
Colors

I can not write the
Words because
I don’t yet know the
Song.

I thought that it just
Existed
Never realized how it must
Evolve

To be
To become
To live and
To learn.

That is stepping
Out of the shadows
And like a flower
Accepting the Sun.

The Hours

The workings of your mind
Amaze me
The way they twist and
Turn

Connections made
The neurons fire
Life…
An action potential

But there
Underneath the
Wheels
Is a gently beating
Heart

Asking to be
Held
Asking to be
Understood.

I understand.

You think so
Much
Don’t think it all
Away

You’ll miss the
Seconds,
Minutes,
The moments…

You’ll miss the

Hours.