Sunday, April 22, 2012

About a Boy.

 

And here with my voice
I try to speak
But the words,
They won’t come out.

They are trapped deep
Beneath me
In a place that I call
Home.

It is hard for me
To get to them
They are jumbled
By so much noise.

If you give me a
Moment to think
Stop talking as though
I’m not here…

I might have
Something to say
If you can read my
Eyes.

You think it hard
To deal with me
Ever think of how I
Deal with you?

You want to mold
Me into something familiar
Because it makes you
Feel safe.

But there is no safety in
My world
Everyone is always
Coming at me.

Telling me,
Expecting me,
Wishing I was
Someone different.

I never asked you
To be anything
Other than
Who you are.

I know that every
Tuesday
You will be here
At 7:30

I know what you
Will be wearing
And I know
How you will smell

But most of all
I will know
That you really
Want to be here.

Please know
That I want
You here
Too.

Monday, February 27, 2012

Pendulum





Tonight I think of you
though I shouldn’t…
I extract you
from my mind.

Your beauty and confusion
Leave me lost, perplexed
and undefined.

The pendulum swings
From the left to the right
I am caught in between…

And every moment
that I think
Is a thought
I’ve left behind.

You are wonderful
Though you think it not so
You are the shooting
Of every star…

And if only
I could hold you tonight
I could tell you
Who you are.

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

will

It could have been today
Or yesterday
Or tomorrow…
Who can tell?

It could have been good
Or better
Or the best…
Who knows?

It could have been me
Or you
Or us…
I wonder…

You cry at night
While I am sleeping
While my cracked hands
Could hold you…

You sleep at night
While I am weeping
Wondering just how
To reach you…

It isn’t a day that
Changes us…
Doesn’t happen
In one moment…

Takes a lifetime to get
Where we’re going

And as much will
To get us there.

2-7-2012

Monday, January 16, 2012

Only Words

I could have been
Different
If I really tried.
I could have been
Better,
Stronger,
Smarter.
I could have been
More
Forgiving…
I could have
Understood
More than
I did.
I look at it all
With my
Emotion;
I forget who I am.
She is trying,
Trying to get there;
We are all just
Passers-by…
It starts with a nod
A humble
Submission
You know not a thing.
But here creeps the need
For understanding
And a language yet
Unknown.
Read me.
Believe me.
Throw me out.
I am only words.

1-16-2012